Wednesday, May 30, 2012

These Days

These days are busy. They are challenging. They are full of laughter, tears, and exhaustion. They are perfect.

In the deepest part of my heart, I never imagined how much I would love being a mom. Especially a mom to this little guy. Even on the earliest of mornings or in the middle of a messy dinner, he looks into my eyes and I just fall for him again and again. Does that sound strange? Falling in love with your child. I thought so too before I did. It just happens. It happens when you least expect it and I swear there are moments when it takes my breath away.

P has started crawling and is getting into everything, not unlike a little puppy. It is both sweet and exhausting. The other day I turned around for one second to grab something from the bedroom closet and heard a deep thump as he rolled himself off the bed. He was mostly in shock, let out a loud wail, and started laughing as soon as I picked him up. He's a tough guy, that P. Mama nearly had a heart attack but P just went on with his day. Luckily our bed is very low to the ground.

These days we are playing in the water playground, learning how to walk, and discovering the ocean. P is eating all kinds of summery meals including his absolute favorite foods, watermelon and curry chicken. He is 7 months old and we have traveled to Europe and back, celebrated mama's birthday, and discovered a love of bike riding. He is gurgling, shrieking with laughter, and nervous when I leave the room. He is turning into such a boy right before our eyes. Each day I try to hold on a little bit longer and hold tight my baby boy a little closer. But I see his little brain processing the world and figuring out how this whole thing works more and more.

These days are speeding up as we try desperately to slow them down, every day.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Family Dinner

I am really looking forward to reading this book. I have been reading Jenny's blog for a long time and have imagined countless times what my own family dinners would look like when we had children.
My own mom cooked every night and there were very few nights that we didn't sit down together and share a meal. Now I have the pleasure of nourishing my baby, laughing with my husband, and filling my own belly every night. I'm sure there will be nights that don't go as smoothly as others. But knowing that we can always sit down as a family, share our day and go to bed satisfied leaves me feeling accomplished. 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Hi, I'm here. Just taking a breath. Last week we were in Amsterdam. Yesterday was my birthday. I feel like this year, more than any other, I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to reflect upon. This past year was the most challenging and enriching one I've lived through. I entered it three months pregnant and finished it with an almost seven month baby. That is an incredible span of events in just a year. I celebrated last year bowling with most of the same amazing people whom I spent laughing with this year. Scott and I hosted a brunch on Sunday with a few of our closest friends. There was great food, plenty of bloody marys, a butterfly cake, and lot's of laughs. As I stepped back and looked around the room, filled with people who came over just to spend time together and make my day special, with a bubbly baby boy (almost) crawling around, and a sweet husband at my side,  I couldn't ask for much more.

The first few days of my new year have been quiet and gloomy outside but on the inside, my heart is full of gratitude for such a tremendous year and anticipation for what's ahead. Having a birthday on the cusp of summer is always a nice way to start the new year. I am looking forward to watching this little baby blossom into the funny little boy he is becoming, build my business and support more new moms, spend lot's of quality time with family and friends, travel as much as we can, and look back on this day next year with the same appreciation I have today.